..Depending on how you look at it I guess. I don't really consider myself "unemployed" because I am a student, but trying to find a job and acting as if I already have the degree I am working towards has made me really think about what I am doing. It's been kind of scary and ground shattering, actually. I feel useless. Seeing the kind of job that my aunt and uncle have and knowing that my education probably won't lead me to the lifestyle that they enjoy worries me a little, because I look up to them a lot.
It boils down to the fact that I have no savings and I still have no idea what I want to do with my life. For a while I was subconciously content thinking that I would always be playing music and dancing, and that studying it along with some kind of business context would be enough. But that is a hard life, and will come with consequences, and I don't know if I will be able to make it work.
Being away from home semi-permanently for the first time ever, basically, has done what I wanted it to do. It has not only thrown me into real life, but it has also made me appreciate how awesome things actually were, and I definitely miss being in Rochester. Granted, I seem to be developing this "grass is always greener" frame of mind... So that is one thing I have to get better at, living in the moment and being happy where I am. But I am definitely getting alot out of being here, and I will definitely appreciate being home.
I have, however, been enjoying the crazies that inhabit the city. Particularly an old drunk (republican?) lesbian that bought our table 2 rounds of drinks after hitting on me in the bathroom :)
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You'll probably hear this a lot, but...
ReplyDeleteBeing young (and I keep forgetting that you are!) means being confused about what you want. So you're right on schedule... and actually, most of us still don't know, even almost ten years after college.
I'm not sure what the stats are on people that go on to a career in their field of study, but remember that no decisions are permanent. And you merely open a new series of doors with each choice.
And the grass really is greener; that's my personal daily motto. :)
Fun fact: You are not actually unemployed! Unemployed technically means collecting unemployment insurance. When you hear reports on the unemployment rate, that number is much lower than the actual jobless rate, which is not really tracked.
Corinne,
ReplyDeleteI am in a similar boat. Not being able to find a job and running out of savings sucks. I can't do the things I really want to do because they require money that I don't have. I have to be content with simple day-to-day activities for now and know that eventually my lifestyle will change into more of what I want it to be. I know yours will too, there's just no way of telling how long it will take.
Can't wait to see you again, but take advantage of the west coast as much as you can while you're there (free drinks is a good start)!
Hey Corinne,
ReplyDeleteAfter I graduated college I went two whole months with no sign of a job. I was totally freaking out. In retrospect, I wish I let myself enjoy the time I had, because everything worked out eventually. I know you have a limited amount of time there but don't be down on yourself. Keep up the search and I am sure you will find something!
Mike
Keep in mind that the economy is very bad right now. I got rejected by all the places I applied, except for one. Just be happy you're not trying to find a full time job in the current economy - trust me when I say it's scary. Chances are things will be better by the time you graduate.
ReplyDeleteAnyways, an idea that has been repeatidly pound into my head is that we do not require much beyond food, shelter, family, and friends to enjoy life. It's not that hard, Life is simple and the world around you is beautiful.
I think I speak for everyone when I say: Rochester misses you too... but we're all a little bit jealous. You are after all, doing something completely awesome.
At least the old drunk republican lesbien has good taste. :-P
-Martin